today is a day when i came back to thoughts about.. changes.

'i take a look at my life and realize there ain't much left..'

i've decided to make my life important, strong, meaningful and.. kind. i can't stand sitting 'sick and tired' at my home for 24h a day.

there are some things i DO wanna change.

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there are some things i don't wanna change.

• i'm addicted to sugar.
• i love asking questions (it's annoying.)
• 'mon amour'
• sister and friends
• the fact that i was born on Sunday
• i've got an awareness that i'm going to die. and that i'll go to heaven.. or hell.
• i'm ALWAYS late
• it happens that i can't fall asleep cause i can't stop thinking (idiot) and there are so many things to do..
• i can stop the time for a second and marvel at the world.
• i habitually lose money, keys, cellphones etc.
• even cardiologists can't guess what's going on in my heart
• i'm full of contrasts: i can't find MY place,
2 whiles, 2 people, 1 body.
one day elegant and with dignity
one day carelessly and slovenly
one day in t-shirt and shorts
one day high-heeled wearing two-piece dress
one day with lipstick
one day with teddy-bear
one day with huge smile
one day without.


i don't wanna change it cause real hamster has to do only 3 things in his life: eat to the full, have a good sleep and die.

i'm a hamster of full value.